Merry Christmas To Us!

FINALLY, we have our "official" referral and travel dates for our little girl! We will be traveling January 17-23rd for our first trip.....this is a LOOOONNNGGG time away, and I'm trying REALLLLY hard to be positive and not hate holidays at this moment for interrupting my plans!!! Typically the wait to travel after the official papers arrive is 2-3 weeks....mine is SIX WEEKS! Okay, enough "bellyaching". But just wait, those of you who are yet to be matched or yet to request a child, you think THAT waiting is(was) hard? Wait till you see his/her face! You'll be very intolerant of any obstacles that get in your way and keep you from getting to your child too:).

With the official referral, we also got a new picture of her and she looks like she has grown so much. I have to honestly say that I'm kind of grieving the time I didn't have with her as a young baby...I know this is probably normal and will pass once I get to see and hold her, but it's just really difficult to know that the process is still months away from being over. Months that she is going to grow and reach milestones that, once again, I'll miss. UGGH! I think the enemy is trying to rob me of my joy, what do you think?

So, what to do now....? Well, I'm waiting for the travel packet so I can start planning the trip, I need to go Christmas shopping, make some homemade goodies(okay, they're "made in my home"..DON'T JUDGE ME!:)), shop for my new daughter and her caregivers....that's two weeks filled....hmmm, what to do the next 4 weeks...I know...I forgot to worry, fret, obsess, and drive my friends and family crazy! There! Six weeks full of holiday cheer!

More cheer later!
Renae