Today....

Today, I am filled with fear and uncertainty:(.  As we sat and went over all the things we have yet to pay for in our adoption, it just kept adding up and adding up and adding up...things we didn't expect to cost so much...like IMMUNIZATIONS(almost $800 for both of us), and plane tickets(HOLY MOLY!!)..and we realize we are MUCH further behind than expected.  NOT, where you want to be when you're expecting that call any day.  $13,000 short.:(

So...I worry... 

It was easy in the beginning. We had enough money to start with, and we could see where the rest could come from down the road...then my hubby lost a little income...and Sarah ended up in the hospital last summer...and Caleb got hit by a tractor this summer...and I had heart issues that needed to checked out.. And last Friday a storm came through our town and knocked out our power for 4 DAYS, and ripped sections of our roofing off(praying insurance covers most of this, but....) All unexpected things that had to come from savings...our adoption savings...  But still we trusted that He who called is FAITHFUL...

But, still I worry....

HOW is this going to work out?  WHEN? 

So, we keep working and doing our part and TRUSTING that although, RARELY does international adoption run smoothly....in ANY aspect of it... we are doing what God has called us to do..

And I take comfort that what Jesus said in Matthew 6:25-34 is JUST as true for us today, as it was for His followers in "New Testament" times.

Matthew 6

25."Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about you body, what you will wear.  Is not life more imprtant than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.  Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

28"And why do you worry about clothes?  see how the lilies of the field grow.  They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in a ll his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will given to you as well. 34 Therefore not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of it's own."

God has this...we know that...

Will you continue to pray that in these last few steps of the process, we will just be BLOWN AWAY by HIS FAITHFULNESS?!?!?!  We want HIM to get the glory for the provision and NOT us...this is NOT about us...IS NOT!

Rambling over:).

Love you friends!:)