We are so excited to share our Ethiopian adoption adventure, and our CRAZY lives with all of you! Our hope is that it will encourage you to step out in faith to do what God has called you to do! There are FIELDS of fatherless children waiting for someone to care for them, to love them, to tell them of JESUS' love for them...will YOU be the one??

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

De-Bunking the Myth

I have had so many encouraging words lately from you guys! BUT...you guys give me way TOO MUCH credit! Most times I'm so unsure about my sanity, my faith, my LIFE...

I try to say things that will encourage YOU....but inside I still struggle with...well, all of the above! I doubt my decisions...I doubt my ability to parent, homeschool, discipline, raise the beautiful children I've been given...

I'm afraid they're going to be scarred for life by something I've said...or not said..

I'm afraid that I'll miss God's "other" callings on my life because I'm too busy to sit and listen to Him speak! Or, I'll rush and do something crazy that really wasn't HIS plan..it was mine!

I'm afraid that I won't ever gain victory over the "ugly" that's in my life...

I'm afraid that what my mother said is true..I really WILL turn into a chocolate covered peanut if don't STOP eating so MANY of them!!!!!!

I'm just afraid....

Then I remember, He has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind.(2 Tim. 1:7)

So glad that today...and every day...He gives me the power to live a victorious life, cause I could NEVER do this without Him! SO, I will move forward in CONFIDENCE that GOD'S got this...even when I don't:).

Okay, rambling over!:)


  1. Renea, thanks for being real. I think most of us moms feel the same way you do. I am forever asking my kids for forgiveness and praying for wisdom. I too am afraid I might mess up my kids:) But God knew what he was doing when he made me my kids mom, he chose them specifically and me specifically. It is hard and that is why we need to be in fellowship with other moms, be real and be in God's word (also go out for coffee once in ahwile and take a break from schooling if need be).

  2. Hi Renae~
    As always, you're so encouraging. Thank you. I know I say this every stinkin' time I get on your blog, but I seriously can't believe how much your daughters look alike. I never thought that could be said here, but you know, someone just mentioned they thought our youngest, who yes, is black, and our oldest, who yes, white, reminded her of one another. Someone else said that our adopted son looks like my husband. Adopted son-black and curly hair. Husband-white-straight hair. It just makes me laugh and the very weird thing about it is I know what they mean. Our sons and daughters have freakishly similar personalities in some ways.

    Do you know Nancy Leigh DeMoss' website, radio program, books, etc. I thought you might be blessed by it as I have been these last few weeks.

    Walking with you, my sister in Christ~

  3. Very encouraging to read Renae, Thank You! It's nice to know that I'm not the only one! :o)
    I think satan stops us that way. I doubt myself, my fears set in, but I see that I need to tell myself these same words I want to tell you! "Don't quit posting. We need to hear what you are saying!" Yes! God does NOT give us the spirit of fear! (((HUG)))