Today has been full of doubt, anger, fear...and a whole bunch of other yucky emotions...AND I've felt physically "ill"...
What's going to happen? Will God come through? Will we look like idiots?(no pride issue there!)
I hate the unknown, and well, NOT being in at least SOME control of the situation! It would help if I had some skill or talent that I could "sell", and work at home...but I don't...AT ALL!
I'm NOT crafty, creative, and I don't bake or cook(at least nothing that I could actually in good conscious sell someone)...so me bringing in extra income to help out is unlikely.
So...I feel guilt too now....this sucks!
PLUS, I have to go to the Dr. on Monday for a "mystery" pain that needs to be checked out....great!
It's just one of those days.....
Hang in there! We all know how "those days" feel! Hoping tomorrow seems sunnier!
ReplyDeleteHugs to you! I hope that you feel better soon both emotionally and physical!!!
ReplyDeleteHugs Renae! I think that's totally 'normal' - to feel that way (especially when you have physical pain to deal with too!) ... you should check out the online auction we did - I bet you could do something like that too! :)
ReplyDeleteI'm kinda feelin the same. Our Dossier was submitted last Monday-no word on Friday. :o( What if we're rejected? What if our paper work is not acceptable? We always wonder what our income will be, year to year. We quit worrying about it years ago. I would think if your income qualifies now while doing your HS, why do changes have to be reported after it's all written and done? Sorry for rambling here. :o)
ReplyDelete(((HUGS)))
Renae,
ReplyDeleteGood Cop - Honey, you are an amazing woman who has had A LOT on her plate! Keep listening to Him whisper in your heart and you will know what comes from Him.
Bad Cop - I do not receive the word "idiot"...ever! Take that word back right now because that is the only thing coming from the enemy himself!
I am hoping today you receive answers from the doctor. I pray God's hand is covering that appointment and bringing healing your way.
Sending love and hugs your way,
Lori