This past week we received a $4000 grant from ShowHope!! We feel very blessed and affirmed that the Lord is providing, and will continue to do so.
Now, lest you think this process is all roses....let me set you straight...I have had to take a part-time job, and for the past eight months have been juggling homeschooling/caring for 5 children, and working 3-5 nights per week...this has been for the most part, miserable!! We knew that we needed the extra income for the adoption, so I said I would do it...God provided Kohl's...I jumped and......I have felt so attacked by the enemy, that I can't even explain it all...... I have felt depressed a lot...wondering whether or not we're doing the right thing...why is this so hard..etc.... Let's just say that I am soooo thankful to be a stay-at-home mom!! And I can't wait to come home!! I'm a terrible working mother!!! I am grateful for the extra money for the adoption, but the enemy is doing all he can to beat me up in this process..
So, why do we go through all of this..it's not necessary you know... Because somewhere in Eastern Europe, in a tiny country called Bulgaria, is a tiny little girl waiting for us to come for her...and we can't do that without paying the cost..and traveling this road we're on... We can't give up now, we're too close!!
They key is staying close to the Savior...in His word...in His presence...among His people!! Lord may I surrender to being in your presence more often!! Give me strength for the day, and keep our daughter safe as she waits for us.