Today, no whining, I promise:). The recurring theme of the past couple of days has been "surrender"... This word is right up there with "submission" when it comes to difficulty in putting into practice. But it's what my God requires..surrender to His timeframe, His plan, His hopes for us.
So VERY, VERY difficult! I feel as though I'm giving up on my daughter...
But, I'm not...I won't give up interceding for her before the throne of a just and righteous God!! I won't give up hoping and praying for God to intervene NOW!!! I won't stop thinking about and loving her from an ocean away!!!
There is a balance to be had between surrendering to whatever God ordains for our family, and still believing that He is able and, many times, more than willing to answer our heart's cry for help! There is room for both!:) Delicate, difficult, balance.
My children are watching today...watching to see if I'm "thankful in all circumstances"...watching to see if I really do trust Jesus to bring our little girl home...watching me storm the gates of heaven on her behalf...watching to see if God really answers prayers...WATCHING!!!
And maybe today you are watching too, bloggy friends, to see if I'm going to trust the One who laid down His life to adopt ME...if I'm going to let Him be in control(when I want so much to do it myself)...watching me struggle with, what I've discovered, is my very teeny tiny faith...
So for today, I will rest in HIM(and His great love for me), wait for HIM(to move), pray for HIM(to intervene), and watch for HIM(to do what He does best..bring glory to Himself).
And tomorrow? I'll probably be back to obsessing about what's going on in our adoption...but hey, baby steps, right:)?